This blog is here to keep me focused and help me avoid undervaluing my hard-earned experiences and knowledge. Over the last two years, I made a million dollars through different ventures—only to lose it just as fast. I went through money like it was endless, convinced it would always be easy money, easy life.

Then reality hit hard. My European residency was revoked, my accounts were frozen, and I was kicked out of the EU. Back in Russia, I tried to restart with smaller projects, but my capital kept slipping away, piece by piece.

In the last two months, I’ve been deep in DEXs, learning everything from scalping to meme trading, launching projects, copy trading, and more. There were nights when a single SOL multiplied into hundreds, only for me to watch it all disappear in a single bad trade or poor decision. Mistakes piled up fast, each one teaching me a lesson I hadn’t yet learned.

Now, I’m at a major low point. A few poor decisions and wrong moves, and I’m down to my last coins, facing tough choices and the need to drastically cut back on my lifestyle. It’s a mental rollercoaster. One moment, I’m confident I can turn it around, and the next, doubts creep in, whispering, “You’re a failure; this is the end.”

In the background, crypto is soaring again, and I’ve missed countless opportunities to ride those gains. And yet, I keep pushing into new projects, hoping to find a path forward.

If this resonates, maybe you’ve felt it too: the back-and-forth between hope and despair, the sleepless nights, the relentless pressure to get it right. I’ve learned some hard truths through my mistakes:

1. Don’t chase every gain — Not every spike and dip is worth risking everything.
2. Hold onto your foundation — Keep something stable to fall back on. I burned through my safety nets too quickly.
3. Trust yourself, but don’t let it blind you — Confidence is valuable, but overconfidence will leave you with nothing if you don’t temper it with caution.

I started this blog to keep me grounded, to remind myself of where I’ve been, what I’ve learned, and the goals I still haven’t achieved. This is my way of turning losses into lessons, not just for me but for anyone who finds themselves on the same path.

So here’s to a new chapter. Maybe my experience will save you time, money, and a few hard lessons. Thanks for reading.